I have been training for my 5K I have at the beginning of November for a couple of months now. There has always been this goal to be able to run the 3.1 miles without stopping. I never expected to be able to do that at an actual race, but during my training, it is […]
I am alive and well, and I think it is important to take a moment to stop and recognize this, especially with the recent remembrance of 9/11 and World Suicide Prevention day on 9/10. So many people died in the 9/11 tragedy and the aftermath that occurred as a result, and every day, people die […]
I have still been feeling happy for the most part, and I am taking full advantage of it to get back on track with my health and fitness. I scheduled my annual physical in August that will include blood work for cholesterol and stuff like that. I have been making an effort to eat right […]
The waves in my mind have been calm for the most part, gently rocking me as I relax on my back, enjoying the warm sun kissing my skin. I hear seagulls passing by and smell salt in the air.
I am all alone, but I am glad.
I try not to think about the storm that I know will eventually come my way, but today is not the day to worry about what is not now. These storms will always come back, the depression will kick in, and I will find myself kicking to keep my head afloat from the tall waves crashing down on me, but I will stand strong and face the storms. My loved ones are my boat, and the Lord is my life jacket because He alone can handle the harsh, relentless waves. He is not bothered by turbulence or storms. He is my stability.
I am not afraid.
So, today, I will be. I will silence the voice in my head whispering, “The storms will be back, you know,” and enjoy the here and now as I float in my sea of happiness.
I don’t know about you, but I could not be happier than spring is here. The trees are full of green and pretty colors, the grass is growing back, and the sun is shining and warm. Around the end of February or so, I got hit with the dreaded wintery depression. My anxiety was through […]
I am the queen of black-and-white thinking, but I wasn’t always this way. I wasn’t always the worst case scenario expert, and I used to be a lot more optimistic than I am. Then I became a social worker. I am kidding but not completely kidding. Working with people did have a big impact, I […]
What do you do when things are going good and life is bright–you’re happy, you’re accomplishing goals, you feel motivated, you feel encouraged, you’re hopeful–but then all of a sudden…the switch turns off and you’re in the darkness? The worst part is there was nothing in particular that made it go off. It just did. […]
I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I went down to my sister’s and stayed the night and had a Thanksgiving lunch with her and my Dad and his wife, and then I stayed the night with my best friend (aka, my wifey) and we hung out on Black Friday. Anyway, when I was at […]
The older I get, the more complicated life seems to get. I think it can be even more difficult sometimes when you’re a die-hard black-or-white thinker. I will openly admit that my self-esteem has never been at elevated levels, and I don’t want to put myself down more than what life has already dished at […]
Some days are definitely better than others. I feel I definitely earn my gold star adulting stickers and then other days… What happened? On the days that are not so good—from general anxiety to stress to being hangry (which is very real, trust me) and everything in between—social interactions can be a big struggle for […]