I just turned 30, and I have some big goals for this decade!
I have been writing since I can remember, and it was something I always knew I was called to do. I enjoy writing fiction and memoir, and I have recently found a love for blogging.
Speaking of blogging, TheAwkwardDoe.com is just a simple blog about a simple 30-year-old who is an awkward individual who likes to share her life with others. I will write about whatever is on my mind, from my favorite recipe to our most recent camping trip to my love-hate relationship with running to more serious, taboo topics, like struggling with disordered eating along with grief and depression.
I am an honest person, and I believe my job as a writer is to be even more honest. After all, it's not about me--it's about creating an experience for YOU, my reader, and I do that through honesty.
I am fun to get to know, and I am sure I will amuse you in some sort of way with my awkwardness!
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I have still been feeling happy for the most part, and I am taking full advantage of it to get back on track with my health and fitness. I scheduled my annual physical in August that will include blood work for cholesterol and stuff like that. I have been making an effort to eat right […]
The waves in my mind have been calm for the most part, gently rocking me as I relax on my back, enjoying the warm sun kissing my skin. I hear seagulls passing by and smell salt in the air.
I am all alone, but I am glad.
I try not to think about the storm that I know will eventually come my way, but today is not the day to worry about what is not now. These storms will always come back, the depression will kick in, and I will find myself kicking to keep my head afloat from the tall waves crashing down on me, but I will stand strong and face the storms. My loved ones are my boat, and the Lord is my life jacket because He alone can handle the harsh, relentless waves. He is not bothered by turbulence or storms. He is my stability.
I am not afraid.
So, today, I will be. I will silence the voice in my head whispering, “The storms will be back, you know,” and enjoy the here and now as I float in my sea of happiness.
I don’t know about you, but I could not be happier than spring is here. The trees are full of green and pretty colors, the grass is growing back, and the sun is shining and warm. Around the end of February or so, I got hit with the dreaded wintery depression. My anxiety was through […]
I debated for about a week or so if I was even going to write about this. In a way, it is kind of comical. What happens in the dream is not comical by any means, but who dreams of being chased by zombies? *Slowly raises hand* Some time has passed since I woke up […]
I am the queen of black-and-white thinking, but I wasn’t always this way. I wasn’t always the worst case scenario expert, and I used to be a lot more optimistic than I am. Then I became a social worker. I am kidding but not completely kidding. Working with people did have a big impact, I […]
Ah, it is Valentine’s Day. It got me thinking about what love is to me. I have been married for almost 7 years and still figuring it out, and I am no means an expert or love guru. This is a both serious and silly examination of what love means to me. But for me, […]
I think right now, Thomas Harris is my favorite author. I really enjoy his writing style and story-telling abilities.
The Silence of the Lambs is the second book of the Hannibal Lecter universe, and just like its predecessor, it does not disappoint. There were a couple of times throughout this story where I got major chills, so if you like a story that will stay with you, TheSilence of the Lambs is sure to deliver.
Clarice Starling is a student at a law enforcement academy who is slowly pulled into helping solve the case of a serial killer nicknamed Buffalo Bill, whose victims are female and he skins and scalps them. Clarice speaks to Dr. Hannibal Lecter about the killer, and he gives her a psychological profile of the killer and reveals he believed the killer was a patient of his at one point. Things take a heavy turn when Buffalo Bill kidnaps a senator’s daughter, Catherine, and the race is on to not only find Buffalo Bill and Catherine, but to find Lecter, who takes full advantage when being transferred to another facility.
What does this have to do with lambs? Don’t worry. You’ll find out.
Overall, I give it a 4/5.
“Do you think if you caught Buffalo Bill yourself and if you made Catherine all right, you could make the lambs stop screaming, do you think they’d be all right too and you wouldn’t wake up again in the dark and hear the lambs screaming?”
Has your environment ever been disrupted to the point to where you feel misplaced? My home office has been getting remodeled with a much needed face lift, but in the mean time, I don’t really have a place to write or just take my required alone time as a dedicated introvert. I need that time […]
I feel like I have been stuck in a rut here lately. Nothing exciting or life-changing has happened. Nothing severely unfortunate has happened (thank God!). I feel like I am just spinning my wheels. I feel like I am in this awkward phase of just going through a really, really long tunnel. I feel like […]
I don’t consider myself a reader with a favorite genre, but I think I am a fan of the mystery genre. This is the first “mature mystery” book I have ever finished, and I use the word “mature” because this book is definitely not for the youngins. This ain’t no Nancy Drew series. There are disturbing scenarios, and the killer of the story is a seriously disturbed individual. Suspenseful with a few mouth-dropping twists, Red Dragon was a story I enjoyed from start to finish.
Following the murders of two families, a detective is called in from retirement to help solve these mysteries. It is a rush to catch the killer, who calls himself the Dragon (and not the Tooth Fairy as the media has nicknamed him), before he strikes again and kills another family on the next full moon. (The killer likes to leave bite marks on his victims, among other “signature moves”, hence the nickname.) The story has many twists and turns, so I never found myself bored. The ending was definitely a surprise to me, so it is well worth the read!
What I love most about Harris’s writing is he is blunt. He just comes right out and says what is happening. He does not tip-toe. He was so blunt I had to reread things to make sure I read it right the first time.
Overall, I give it 4.5/5.
“Good-bye, Dr. Lecter…”
“Do you know how you caught me?”
Graham was out of Lecter’s sight now, and he walked faster toward the far steel door.
“The reason you caught me is that we’re just alike” was the last thing Graham heard as the steel door closed behind him.